Plan Surprise

16 March 2006

Read your multiply. Got this kinda sad feeling. Its always depressing for me when i read your blog. I dunnoe why. You asked me why i like you. Here's my answers:
1) i feel comfortable when im with u - love your company
2) im happy in ur company - love to see you
3) i feel happy when u msg me - love to see that u're responding to me
4) im happy when u call me or i call u - love to hear your voice
5) i like your attitude - love the way you walk, you talk, you behave
6) i love your smile - love the joy you brought to others
7) i like your outside - love your sweet, pretty appearance
8) and your inside... beauty - love your brain, your blood, your heart
I called you. You told me someone date you tmr already. And you sounded happy you are going for the date. I din't want to ask who was it, cause i know the answer would be heartbreaking. And yes, you're going out with zesin. My heart broke. You're celebrating your 21st bday with him. You said your birthdays are special days, and you're celebrating with him. So i guess he's still the special someone in your heart. Maybe no one can replace him. I got this plan initially. But i've decided to call it off. I dun see a point anymore. Wanted to borrow the car, buy a cake, go to your hall, surprise you at the brink of mid-night. But i guess, i've lost all the courage and confidence in doing it. A broken heart cannot do much, cannot do anything. Plan surprise cancelled, officially. I dun wan to stay home with a broken heart. It makes the feeling of lonliness worse. Im going out, no matter what.