It's been a long time since i last ........

My dear baby was sick on thursday.. Yet all I did was to play mahjiong.. Den go hall bash.. I din mean to neglect nor did i ignore her.. She didn't reply i really thought she was asleep.. Hall bash was totally boring as expected.. But still went to support hall.. And club with friends.. I love the company of many guys.. Im afraid of loneliness.. But im not gay..

There's ivp training every monday wednesday and friday.. Its totally tiring and shag for the mind and body.. The good thing is that im beginning to get used to it.. Starting to grow stronger.. Hope i can be strong enough to make it to the final squad.. Friday's training was the first training, after so many, that I felt I am something in the team.. That training gave me confidence..

Its not totally so easy being a student.. There's something call stress which im fearful of.. Too high a level i think people will just go nuts.. Stress from class.. The ability to speak up in class and impress the stupid Acct tutor.. The mind to understand maths and more maths formula in Maths class.. Research method isn't totally about research.. Basically there's stress from studies.. Den ivp soccer.. Impressing the coach is a must.. Since im not the player that coach has to pick for sure.. Im fighting for a place.. I lose sleep at night.. Thinking about exams.. And the mistakes i made during training.. Why am i not a better player of a higher class?!

Saturday was the day I officially became the soccer captain of hall 3.. At least the sports sect told me before hand and announced to the players that came on sat morning.. Saturday was also the sad day.. I screwed up again.. For the sake of convenience and company.. Well sad things shldnt be written here coz this is supposed to be just for joy!! Glad that things at least worked out fine for the both of us.. With crabs waiting at home for us.. Thanks baby for the wine candy.. The little red umbrella.. And of coz the cookies made with love.. And chocolate!! Haha..

Sunday is just a simple day.. Grocery shopping.. Walking in the rain.. Fine home-cooked dinner at home.. Relaxing relaxing.. But poor baby having pre monday blues.. And of coz menstrual.. Hope you get fine soon baby.. And dont dread work too much k.. I'll be there for you.. I'll listen to your troubles if you have any.. So dont be afraid to approach me k.. What am i here for.. Not just ATM, driver, sand bag, bodyguard, pillow, toy or dish washer.. I am your darling.. One who listens to you when you need me.. I'll be there for you baby...