Just Wanna Say

Baby... I love you...

Im Sorry...

im not the one to bring you to red dot...
im unable to bring you to disney land now...
im not good looking enough...
im not cute enough...
im not tall enough...
im not wealthy enough...
im not sweet enough...
im not romantic enough...
im not smart enough...
im not sensitive enough...
im not up to expectation...
im totally helpless whenever you have stomache or headache...
you havent't receive a single flower from me...
i didn't manage to watch ndp with you at the national stadium...
i didn't bring you to disney on ice back in march...
i dont have so so much time for you...
i wasn't there when you had bad dreams...
i made you cry...
im sorry...

Birthday Week

15 Aug.. happy birthday watson..
16 Aug.. happy birthday suan..
17 Aug.. happy birthday guoren..
18 Aug.. happy birthday mummy..

Well, everyday, someone is born. If only you could choose your own birth date..

This week has been a long and tiring week for me. So physically demanding, i thought i would break down any of the days. Luckily i made it through, but im becoming a snorer. This is bad. Help!!! Someone please give me the remedy to stop all my snoring!! Im still not used to the hall life YET. Give me time and im sure i'll be able to cope with the hours. Soccer training mon wed fri. Soccer trial tue thur. Sat ntu matches. Sun impulse matches. At a point of time, i almost wanted to give up ivp. But you cheered me on. You gave me strength. Thanks baby. I really need you in my life. Im sorry im not a romantic person. Not up to your expectation, but i will try to come up with something special now and then k?? I'll try.

Thur was sports bash. I felt bad not going, but i did not regret a single bit. Knocking off at 12midnight sharp. Felt cinderella somehow. Had great nights the past few days. Guess that's what hall life is all about.

Fri was ivp confirmation day. Glad i made it to the team. Though only B squad, i'll slowly work my way up to the first team. And it's mummy's birthday today. Called home only to inform that i wont be going home for the night. And didn't wish her happy birthday. Guess she was disappointed. But i've just lost the courage to say happy birthday.. i love you.. this kinda lines to her. Im not a man. Sorry mummy.

Sat morning woke up to receive a call. Red alert!! Ding's parents are at hall, and she was still in ding's room. Managed to settle everything in a short time, phew. Went for lunch with ding's parents and then went to sleep. Tired. My hair is so long i can chew them while they're still attached to my scalp!! Wanted to cut at lousy sunplaza but the queue was just too long. Im lazy. Liverpool was quite disappointing. But the sight of chloe makes my heart melt.

I miss you baby.

Happy 1st Monthsary

14 August 2006

Happy monthsary my dear. Its our first month together. More months will come i promise. Im sorry baby, i really am. Sorry for being effortless, not so sweet, not so romantic, not so memorable. I really felt bad, and disappointed in myself for not doing anything much. I will try to make up for it. I'll try. So in any case, do not give up hope on me alright. I will do my best. Cause i love you baby. Thanks for the sweet sweet card, plus the black 'apple' thats not edible. Cakes were superb too. You just make me love you more each day.

School

7 August 2006

First day of school. NBS orientation. Kinda sian. But at least i got to know some people from my tutorial group. Hope they're happening and onz.

8 August 2006

Eve of national day. Supposed to go watch fireworks, but both of us were too tired to go. Slept instead. Was late for class gathering. Guess it doesn't matter.

9 August 2006

Click. Not the best movie i've watched. But it'll sure be a memorable one. After so so long, our first movie. Unbelievable. But at least its a good start. Let's watch more movies!! Red and white were the colours to be in, cause its national day. Happy birthday Singapore!! Btw baby, you look great in tube.

10 August 2006

Back to hall. Hall life is crazy. People wash clothes at 1, bathe at 2, study at 3, sleep at 4. I dun wanna be part of them!! Its crazy!! Sports camp bbq at Nanyang house. The scenary at the roof top is wonderful. After that was drinking session with sports camp people at hall 3. Our clique partied till 6. Crazy stuff man.

11-13 August 2006

Suan's chalet at NSRCC. So far from school, almost died travelling there lahz. But my motivation was there. My baby was there waiting for me. Party was cool, but food wasn't really fantastic. Suan was beautiful, but you were gorgeous in that white dress. You always look good in dress. I think you look lovely in anything. Really. Drinking games were dumb, but we all enjoyed it. Koklong was drunk, as usual. You wanted more liquor, but you're allergic remember. Anyway happy birthday suan, may all your dreams and wishes come true. And liverpool won community shield. Yes.

Finally

I was pissed off. I blogged halfway this afternoon, but all of a sudden, the whole window closed. My entry was lost. Sian to the max. But i shall be determined. I will blog again. :)
First i apologise for not blogging for such a long time. When i wanted to blog, my com crashed. When my com was repaired, the mood to blog wasn't there. Now that i have the chance, i will blog.

17-23 July 2006

Did not attend NBS camp. Was glad i did not go. Had so much more time to accompany you. Really enjoyed myself then. The time spent was quality time and i was really happy. Hope you felt the same too.

24-30 July 2006

NTU sports camp. It was a really great experience. Had fun there and learnt a lot from the 7 days. Though it looked long at the start, and the sleeping duration was crazy, i felt that i wanted more from sports camp. The diving experience, amazing race, old CGH theme park, banana boat, cheers, grand finale and not to forget the bond built were all unforgetable. BLs, ABLs, GLs, freshies, great knowing all of you. Guess the 7 days really made us gel together. Sports club hooray!! Tried doing something for you, but failed. After 3 days of long hours combined with little sleep, i did not complete what i intended to do. Halfway done. Sian. But during those days, i really miss you a lot. Sorry i couldn't accompany you for your first dental. And sorry i made you cry the last day. I didn't mean to. Really.

31 July - 6 August

Accompanied you for your second appointment with mr dentist. Painted suan's banner. Did shopping. And more shopping. Spent hell lot of money that few days. Gosh. I felt broke. Haha. These few weeks were great. So happy to be with you. I want this kinda honeymoon feeling to last. Last through months, years, and hopefully last when both of us step onto the red carpet TOGETHER. I really hope so.

Salty Coffee

He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many
guys chasing after her, while he was so normal,
nobody paid attenion to him. At the end of the
party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she
was surprised, but due to being polite, she
promised.

They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous
to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she
thought, please, let me go home...suddenly he asked
the waiter: "would you please give me some salt? I'd
like to put it in my coffee."

Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned
red, but, still, he put the salt in his coffee and
drank it. She asked him
curiously: why you have this hobby?

He replied: "when I was a little boy, I was living
near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could
feel the taste of the sea , just
like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I
have the salty coffee, I always think of my
childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown
so much, I miss my parents who are still living
there". While saying that tears filled his eyes. She
was deeply touched.

That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his
heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he
must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has
responsibility of home.. Then she also started to
speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her
childhood, her family. That was a really nice talk,
also a beautiful beginning of their story.

They continued to date. She found that actually he
was a man who meets all her demands; he had
tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was
such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks
to his salty coffee! Then the story was just like
every beautiful love story, the princess married to
the prince, then they were living the happy life...
And, every time she made coffee for him, she put
some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way
he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter
which said: "My dearest, please forgive me,! forgive
my whole life lie. This was
the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee.
Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous
at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I
said salt It was hard for me to change so I just
went ahead. I never thought that could be the start
of our communication!

I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life,
but I wastoo afraid to do that, as I have promised
not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'm dying, I
afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't
like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste..
But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life!
Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I
do for you. Having you with me is my biggest
happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the
second time, still want to know you and have you for
my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty
coffee again".

Her tears made the letter totally wet.

Someday, someone asked her: what's the taste of
salty coffee?

It's sweet. She replied.