Down On Luck

Mahjiong ended not long ago.. I lost 20 bucks.. Its alot consider we played 20/40 and i only shoot once.. That is how unlucky i am.. Or issit the rest are just too lucky?! Well i should blame no one but myself.. For the lack of resistance to temptation.. The easy going-ness of agreeing with there is a 3 short 1 situation.. I guess i was being punished by heaven, by giving me lousy hands almost every round.. Or issit others are just too lucky?! Well i wanna change.. I wanna learn to be determined to say no.. Bear with me ok?? Baby.. Be patient with me.. My weakness is that i dont like to disappoint my friends.. Especially when there's a 3 short 1 mj situation.. I will change.. Just give me a bit of time..

I just walked out of hall with yaen and 2 other senior gal.. What happened was that a couple quarrelled and the guy left the gal at NIE.. The guy had a bike and i dont exactly know what happened.. I just went with them to look for the gal.. We din go far, coz the gal walked back to hall.. What a brave gal to walk to NIE alone!! Well, yaen kept asking me.. Do you think edmund would do that to me?! I assured her that edmund wont dare of coz.. Well i was thinking to myself too.. What a f up boyfriend.. Even though you quarrel with your gf.. She is still your gf.. How can you leave her alone at NIE?! Kaoz.. Its too mean la.. I definitely wont do this to my gf of coz.. Its too dangerous.. Somemore its the 7th month.. Scary..