Chloe is sick

For the past few days, it was tough for Chloe, mummy, daddy, kor, everyone in the family. Chloe had fever and cough. She had throat infection and she is definitely in pain. She dun wanna drink milk, dun wanna eat porridge and water is something she hates. Chloe survive only on bread and honey water. Good thing she is still willing to eat bread. And drink honey water. Can really see that she is weak. Cant crawl that fast. Cant walk that steadily. She really must recover fast!! Everyone else in the family suffer as well. Mummy busy looking after Chloe. I'll help whenever i can. Though im slacking at home, i made myself useful by reducing mummy's burden. Daddy and kor will do their part when they come home after a long day of work. And everyone cant really get good sleep. Whenever Chloe coughs, she cries. Damn loudly. Guess she must be feeling the pain when her saliver comes in contact with her infected throat. It is really hard on mummy too. 24-7 taking good care of Chloe. Pat her to sleep. Play with her. Bluff her to take the medicine. Waking up in the middle of the night to make milk. Waking up at the slightest noise to make sure that Chloe is pampered back to sleep. That's why the saying goes.. Mothers of the world are the greatest!! I'll make sure my future wife will be a great mum too!

Drink.. Drank.. Drunk..

That is the sequence. Drink. Drank. Drunk. Im glad no one got drunk. Had a drinking session them at Bullfrog bar situated at Novena Square. Sorry guys i din drink much. Not at the bit high and din really entertain you guys. Wasn't in the mood to drink. But was happy to see that most pple were happy. Guess you all had fun. Next time round, its definitely my turn to have fun! Suan and vince.. i already had the feeling of losing a friend.. so stop attitud-ing each other. In fact, both of you care for each other. Don't be mad or angry with one another k.. i don't want to 'lose' any more friends. Everyone.. just be happy!!

My Love

How can i forget about my love?!? Chloe Goh... I love girls born on 17 March remember?!! And i will love boys born on 23 May.. Nephew and cousin!!

Finally Home

My baby nephew is finally home, for the first time of his life. I managed to wake up at the noise of family entering the house and caught a glimspe of my nephew, at close range. My baby nephew is cute!! And will grow to be as handsome as his uncle ME, hahaha. Glad he is home safely. But not long after, he is gone. Was brought to my da sao's house to stay there. How often will i get to see him in the future.. i dont know.

Movie Marathon

Went eesuan's place with vincent at night. Was supposed to be a movie night. But we only managed to watch i not supid 2 & 40 yr old virgin. In fact i din finish the latter show, coz i fell asleep halfway. When i woke up, i found myself alone on the sofa!? haha.. Both of them were chatting in the room, must be sharing some secret or gossip. Damn i missed out the fun! Then tired me kicked suan out of her bed and occupied the whole of it. Haha, and scandal vince came squeezing with me. Opps had to make the host sit on the chair the whole night. Next time round, i'll volunteer to sit on the chair. I promise. Came home to find out that my nephew is coming home!! Finally!! So glad he can be discharged already. Heard that he is okay already. So happy those prayers got through. Cant wait to see him!!

黑色毛衣

一件黑色毛衣　
二個人的回憶
雨過之後　更難忘記
忘記我還愛妳

妳不用在意　
流淚也只是剛好而已
我早已經待在谷底

我知道不能再留住妳　
也知道不能沒有骨氣
感激妳　讓我擁有秋天的美麗

看著那白色的蜻蜓　
在空中忘了前進
還能不能　重新編織
腦海中起毛球的記憶

再說我愛妳　
可能雨也不會停
黑色毛衣　藏在哪裡　
就讓回憶永遠停在那裡

A Sweet Surprise

I borrowed vcds from suan weeks ago, and had always wanted to return them to her. But forgetful me kept forgetting. You can say that im very bo xim. I think so too. Finally remembered and went to her house to return to her. Guess what.. vincent tan was there inside her house. Haha. Din even tell me earlier! I was quite shocked though. But it was sweet that vince actually popped by suan's house to pay her a visit. A sweet surprise for suan. I thought it was really nice too. Vince and suan.. im waiting for you to come my house too!! :p We went for early 'supper' at Macs and of coz had a chat there. What else can we do right?! I really like the feeling of having friends out chatting. This group of friends is different from my ding gene kwangyi group. Lets have more of this kinda outings!! Cant wait for tmr nights planned 'movie marathon' cum truth or truth or more truth. Haha. Get ready to answer questions!!

Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU)

Went down to glen eagles today again to visit my da sao and auntie. Both mummy are feeling better. Aunt will be discharged tmr and da sao is coming home on friday. My baby cousin is so small, so cute just like chloe when she's young. Went to neonatal intensive care unit to see my nephew. We were seperated by a thick layer of glass. And he was on the bed so far away from the window, cant really get to see him. Only my brother and da sao can get in and see him, touch him, feel him. We can only feel glad that the doctor says his condition has improved slightly. Initially not used to the temperature of oxygen as his lungs are not fully developed. But thanks to the nurses, doctor and machinery available, my dear nephew is growing better. Tmr will be the first time he is going to drink milk, lets hope that all things turn out well. Doctor said that drinking milk may bloat his tummy, which may result in the compression of his lungs. I pray that that situation will not happen. It is so heartbreaking to see babies in NICU. I almost teared when i see some babies so small and weak. Thank god we have all the technologies available to see. If same situations take place in ancient times, i wonder what would happen to those babies. So i shall keep my fingers crossed and hope that my nephew can be discharged soon. Thanks for everyone who in one way or another prayed for my nephew. Please continue doing so. Thanks!!

No More Sad Entries

No more sad entries.. i promise. Only beautiful ones. This blog is suppose to be just for JOY...

Gemini Babies

Today is a special day. A day where i got a new cousin as well as a nephew. Both my auntie and da sao gave birth today, at Glen Eagles hospital. Both of them are warded on the same level, just rooms away from each other. Its such a coincidence as both of them are supposed to be due in june, not may. My auntie was supposed to give birth on 15 june, but my cousin came to this world 3 weeks early. Good thing he is all fine and healthy. A healthy baby is the most important thing all parents want to see. My nephew was due on june 5, but he couldn't wait that long. So there he is out into our world today. Both of them are Gemini. I managed to catch a glimpse of my newborn baby, but was unable to see my nephew. My nephew is in intensive care unit. As he is a prematured baby, i guess some of his organs are not fully developed yet. There is some problem with his lungs thus he needs to be taken care of in the ICU. Lets hope that he will be fine and healthy in no time. I really want to see a healthy cute baby. All of us are really worried and stressed, especially my brother and da sao. I pray that all things will turn out well and fine. And ya, the first and only person i shared my joy with didn't respond to me.. until hours later. At least she did. Im happy already. And i appreciate it. Thank you.

痛徹心扉

Body aching all over. Need more rest definitely. Bruises on back, waist, knee and toes. All thanks to the mud team yesterday. Scored 2 goals but didn't feel the joy with im home. Don't know why. Mind was elsewhere thinking of other things and person. Met up with shirleen today in Yishun for dinner. Had a swensen dinner. The two of us finished an earthquake can you believe it, but it was yummy. Haa. Had a great chat. I'm glad to see her happy now and hope she can be happy always. Glad her parents are less rigid with her now. Less curfews more freedom. Enjoy your holidays gal. Someone flooded my mind on the bus ride home. Not shirleen definitely. Someone else.. more impt than her..

痛徹心扉

回憶充滿整個房子　我們的住處
圍困我笑也不會茶也不思
一個人　恍恍又惚惚
相愛的國度裡　沒有人居住

回憶混亂我的腳步　阻礙了出路
證明了你的自私你的貪圖
殘忍的　看著我無助
平淡的回應我　虛假的無辜

痛徹心扉　記憶的傷一吋一吋像你的冷酷
否定我　這些日子以來　的付出
不能睡的痛楚　不知名的憤怒
不能上訴　只能安靜的痛哭

不能睡的痛楚　不知名的憤怒
不能上訴　只能安靜的痛哭

I Need You

I don't need a lot of things,
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring,
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason,
You're my only truth
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds rage
And it's so amazing
Cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
Cause you've brought me too far
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
I need you... ...

I think i really do need you. And the sms sent that night was not under alcohol influence. It came deep from my heart and i felt i wanted you to know..

安靜

Happy advanced birthday fat jiji!! Hope you like the presents we've gotten for you!! Had a good time at the chalet. The mahjiong, drinking game(1,2,3,4,5,6,up,8,pepsi,10,....), heart ATTACK and of coz truth or truth were fun. Getting together at the chalet was great coz we get to enjoy each other's company. Would like more of these chances in the future. Definitely another unforgettable day and definitely worth putting it down into the memory bank.

安靜

只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴 安靜的舊舊的

我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你沒有捨不得
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著我 也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開

你要我說多難堪 我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份 包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多 我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開 我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份 安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你 是因為我太愛你

Missing You.. Again

I miss you.. I really do..

Time

Deepest condolences to hansel and his family, for losing a great father and husband. Take care my friend for i know that losing someone so important to you is heartbreaking. But life still goes on no matter what happens. Time is the best cure to heal the pain. I felt that kinda of pain you're feeling right now, though mine was'nt someone so close, but mine was enough to hurt me deep in the heart. Losing someone is painful.. i know that..


And i know i need time too. Need more time to get over that someone special, who had already planted a foot into my heart. I can't forget her of course, but slowly trying to make the space occupied smaller. Hopefully someday she can be part of my happy memory.. and not misery.. I admit some part of me still hope that we can be together, but i know the day won't come. Im trying my best to do what is best for me. Maybe someone along the way can help me?? I know i need more time.. Time is the best cure to heal the pain..

All About Loving You..

Love don't just change overnight i guess. It takes time. Maybe it takes a few weeks, or a few months, or even a few years just to get over someone who meant alot to him. It took me 1 year plus to get over someone who really meant alot to me. Now for this person, i hope the tormenting process wont repeat itself. I know it will take me some time, but still, i dont wish to be tortured for so long. Help!!!

For those whom i cant see everyday, talk to everyday, sms everyday or even msn everyday, all i hope for is to update your blog (if u happen to have one). In this way, though i dun communicate with you, i can know whats happening in your life, whats taking place. Thats all i wish for. As long as you're happy, i think i will feel the same.

哭

以前我看到朋友哭 我很羡慕
可是我怎么逗我自己 怎么弄我自己
我的眼泪都流不出
总觉得能够哭的朋友都很幸福
能够把满腔的无耐 满腔的痛苦让泪水带走

最苦是泪水哽在心头 流不出
就像要爱却不懂得怎么去爱
自己哭过后才明白
流过泪的眼睛 将生命看得更清楚

只有真正懂得付出的人才懂得何为哭 为何哭
再坚强的心偶尔也会脆弱
心会痛 心也会感动
只有曾经真心付出的人才懂得何为哭 为何哭
泪水要记得为真心保留
眼泪别白白的流

最苦是泪水哽在心头 流不出
就像要爱却不懂得怎么去爱
自己哭过后才明白
流过泪的眼睛 将生命看得更清楚

只有真正懂得付出的人才懂得何为哭 为何哭
再坚强的心偶尔也会脆弱心会痛 心也会感动
只有曾经真心付出的人才懂得何为哭 为何哭
泪水要记得为真心保留眼泪别白白的流

Really felt the meaning of the lyrics....

Happy Birthday Gals!!!

Happy birthday gals!! Hope all your dreams come true!!

Happy belated birthday Li Theng!! thanks for your party earlier. the cake was nice. and thanks for the voodoo mini too. it was cute!! haha..

Happy birthday Maggie!! 22 years old le, must take care of yourself. and start looking for your partner. thats if you haven found one. guess you're still partying outside, have a great time babe.

And you all 6AA people, stop treating me as a organiser, call centre, entertainer, etc.. Stop relying on me for outings and gatherings!! DO YOUR PART. haha. stop being lazy you people..

And for you.. hope you like the file of stuff which has found you.. finally.. just hope you like the efforts put into it.. n be happy.. thats all i hope for..

Help... Jobless

I feel so useless. No stable job. Means no stable income. In fact, not much income at all. And istead of earning, im spending like i earn alot. Help...

I am quite free. Willing to be the shifu. Willing to be a shopping companion. Willing to be a free labourer. Willing to do so many things for you. But i lack the chance.. the opportunity to do so..