Decision Making

25 March 2006

I called you. You went out and went home early. Very early. You sound okay. Okay as i thought you were supposed to be not so okay cause of your blog entries days ago. You even told me you went zesin's room on fri night to watch movie. This news can only be heart breaking. Can't think of other words to describe my feelings. Then you fell asleep. You called me at night. I asked you if adding a 'friend' at the beginning of the msg you sent me a hint, you did not want to answer. I've already guessed it. Your choice is obvious. Zesin is the man. When you told me the choice you made is something you didn't like, im quite sure my guess is right. Im really thinking what i should do. I think i should really stop putting so much effort into a relationship that isn't going the way i want. I should stop taking initiative to call you and msg you. Should stop all those stupid things i do just for you. Should i??

26 March 2006

Nothing happened today. No msg, no call. I went jogging and did some work out in the middle of the night. Body aching.